Little Things..I Never Realized !!!

On this Chilly Winter night,idleness is all around..In the past few days my blanket has become my best friend..Sleep have never been so much fun for me.But i dont know what has happened to me today ?? being a little restless i m wondering where has the sleep gone ? every now n then my hand & my eyes co-ordinate to check whether u r there on my mobile in form of a missed call or a message. But u r nowhere to be found.I dont want to call n check whether u r asleep or not , as i fear my call would disturb your sleep and remembering how pretty you look when u sleep further promotes my decision to let u sleep n allow u 2 b busy with the vast set of dreams that make up for most of ur sleep.

The last call before i sleep..is always yours,,the last voice that i hear before my day ends is always yours..But has this changed into a habit ?? and if the answer is Yes , when did this thing happened ?? n i realize itz not just the nights ,, u have become my morning alarm too...Your sweet good morning n urge to wake me up without being harsh feels like just the perfect start to the day,, My day starts with you n it ends with you n i can't exactly remember for how long this has been going on.You indeed make my life very smooth.As far as i remember my life was always a good one,But still you made it better in so many ways..You have given so many things to my life - love,emotions,responsibility,.. made me a better person in all aspects and all these things just happened..For past few years itz been U,day n night,,all through and and when all these changes came,,developed into habits i cant remember.

ALL THESE YEARS V NEVER ATE IN SEPRATE PLATES,(despite having the option to so),N I COULDN REALISE... IT WAS LOVE...so dumb i was .. N today when we continue to do so i think why it took us so long to realize this.But the answer is very simple...As without realizing i learned to talk,learned to walk ........ i started loving without realizing it was love...

When you sleep next to me with your head on my chest,,playing with your hair,I just cant stop looking at you & all i can think of is your admiration.I admire you for the little risks you take to be with me for just an hour or so, i admire you for the changes you have brought in yourself just to keep me happy and comfortable,i admire you for the comfort zone that i feel when i m with you,i admire you for the security i feel when u r around,i admire you for liking my things that you dont like at all,i admire you for the space you provide me,i admire you for the respect u give 2 my thoughts,i admire you for the strength u provide to our relation,i admire you for the way you bear my anger at times,i admire the way you trust me, the way you love me n the way you admire me !!

For so long,just by looking into my eyes u came to knew whether i m happy,sad, hungry,emotional,sentimental or in anxiety...n not for a single time i realized u loved me so much..U knew my emotions so well... Everytime i was about to cry ,u were there trying your best not to let that tear fall....and if the tear came out u were again there to wipe it off, and for all these years you havent changed even to a size of a molecule.

That bite of ice cream which you never shared with any 1 except me,taking my side in all the little arguments we had amongst our friends & then in the night fighting with me on the same topic,fight to sit with me on the bike,always having your seat next to me whether in the class or in the multiplex,offering your share of food to make sure i was not hungry even when u were more than me, stealing flowers every morning just for me,writing letters everyday when u were away & then giving all of them the day v met.With All the little things like this you taught me what is love.

"Love is travelling that extra mile... Even when it Hurts"

"Love is when you change,n u never know when u changed"

"Love ... for Me..itz just YOU.. ",..

Yakeen ........

Aarju ab bhi ek baaki hai,

dil mei bhi wahi zid baaki hai,

agar tumne nafrat karne ki thani hai,

To hamne bhi dil phiglane ki thani hai.

"Teri nafrat ko pyaar mei badalkar dikhaenge,

tere dil pe apna naam likh kar dikhaenge,

ab tak yaad karte hai tujhko,

Ek din teri yaad bankar dikhaenge."

"Teri khamoshi ko aawaj dekar dikhaenge,

tre labon ko muskan dekar dikhaenge,

teri jhuki najren karti hai kuch ishara,

In najro ko najro se milakar dikhaenge."

"Teri duniya mei shamil hokar dikhaenge,

tere lie ek nayi duniya banakar dikhaenge,

mana aaj hum gair hai lekin,

ek din tumhe apna banakar dikhaenge."

"Teri har dua mei baskar dikhaenge,

tere har kaash mei baskar dikhaenge,

tamanna karoge bhi kaise tum kisi aur ki,

hum teri har tamanna bankar dikhaenge."

"Aasman bankar saath chalkar dikhaenge,

tanhaiyon mei teri parchai bankar dikhaenge,

aaj jisko kehte ho tum aawarapan,

ek din ise mohabbat saabit karke dikhaenge."

Aarju'en bahut ki hongi tumne,

ab hum teri har aarju bankar dikhaenge,

Tum apni palken ko band hi rakhna,

Hum unme tumhare khwab chunkar dikhaenge

Ek baar gale lagakar to dekho,

Hum tumhari har dhadkan sunkar dikhaenge,

Jo bhi baat rakhoge apne dil mei,

hum use bhi samajh ke dikhaenge,

"Har galatfehmi door kar k dikhaenge,

har doori door kar k dikhaenge,

fir milne ki khwaish karoge tum bhi ek din,

tere dil mei ye hasrat jaga kar dikhaenge."

Har toote taare se ab bhi tujhko mangta hun,

har badal mei ab bhi tujhko jhakta hun,

har shaqs mei tujhko talashta hun,

har aks mei tujhko talashta hun,

"teri yaadon mei un khushiyon ko dhoondta hun,

har baarish mei chupke se khud bhi rota hun,

meri zindgi ki kahani toone kuch aisi likhi,

ki charo taraf bas mai hi mai hota hun."

............TOOTA HUN MAGAR HAARA NAHI,

TERI JUDAI MUJHKO GAWARA NAHI,

AAEGA AISA DIN BHI,

RO JAEGA WO KHUDA BHI,

AUR JO KEHTE HAI YE MUMKIN NAHI,

HO JAEGA UNKO BHI YAKIN,

ho mandir,masjid ya gurudwara,

sab jagah milega yaar tumhara !!!

Sab jagah milega pyaar tumhara !!!

Maang lo aankhen band kar k usko,

Pyaar karte ho tum jisko,

Rakhna us upar waale pe aitbaar,

lega wo tumhara imtihaan baar baar,

dila dena usko bhi yakeen,

Ki tumhara pyaar kisi ranjhe se kam nahi..

ki tera pyaar tere lie kisi khuda se kam nahi !!!!

What Love !!

As i banged my bag on the seat which read 6/B1 i felt a sigh of relief !! It was one of those rare times when i was on time for my train as all my life i have loved to catch running trains ... I dont know why everyone in this world advised to do things on time, man ! they missed the excitement of completing things in the final hour or 9th hour as they ... and somewhere i felt they lacked the courage to do so .. Well i was a cool 40 minutes earlier than the scheduled departure time and this my no means,was less than a achievement to me. i could hear the applause from coming all around n could imagine myself dedicating this achievement to my dad..i raised my hands to acknowledge the crowd only to find out that i was the only one present in the compartment. Few minutes passed by gazing the reservation scene which hardly interested me.Next few minutes passed by making me realize that i was getting bored to the highest degree..so i had to turn to my forever companions , my laptop my headphones n lovely playlists enstored in ,which were the biggest creative thing i had done all over my mba.i closed my eyes n slowly i was lost in mr. shanker's tune- goonja sa hai tera ek taara..goonja sa hai tera ek taara..

As a jerk in the train disturbed my peace i found out that my compartment was suddenly filled with different strangers and i dont know why everyone seemed to be staring at me.. I checked out my companions for the 14hr long journey n i had a whole variety...from a young couple to an old couple , a girl in his late 20's and a matured looking like gentleman... but to my own displeasure everyone was busy in themselves..the old couple were too busy disccusing the traffic issues,the girl was checking some sort of accounts paper from which i made out that she was a teacher,the gentleman was lost into a article which read 'whats right and wrong' and i thought is it right or wrong to disturb him !! next came the young couple and too my surprise they were busy individually .. the boy who more looked like vasco da gama on his voyage enjoyng himself thinking about his future plans, hardly cared about what his better half was upto.. Girl was more like a cindrella enoying the luxary comfort of his palace..as i started thinking why this young couple was behaving like strangers to each other i noticed that the girl every now n then had a glimpse at her hubby to enquire whether he had something to converse about or not!! but everytime she got such a hard ignorance that even i felt bad..n i started wondering what was the reason behind this cold war..

As the train moved on everyone got involved in his/her personal assignments but the couple had no other plans..they remained busy in themselves ignoring the co-passengers as well as each other..by this time night had spread its empire all over and traditionally it was dinner time..but i was more interested in couple than the food...i thought now they wil hav to definitely break the shackles n come out of this ignorance era !!

the girl started speaking and , man.... , i was shocked... she spoke like a small kid .....continuosly speaking " baby ko bhukh lagi hai..baby kuch khaega.... " n asking her husband to have dinner... she was more acting like a child n her husband was totally unresponsive to all this..First i thought she was trying to gain attention of her husband by speaking like this,displaying all those emotions and doing all those actions.....But seeing her husband unresponsiveness i made out she was a mentally retarded adult whose mind hadn grown up ... He looked her with strange expressions,showed some anger and even pushed his wife a little...The boy also acted a bit strangely but by this time i had developed mix emotions for him...i was a little praise for him for having the courage to marry a girl with such abnormality and accepting her for whole of his life.i thought not everyone had the courage to do the same....n started wondering whether i possessed that courage or not ?? as i was in the process to find an answer i changed emotions for him... i was not at all happy with the way he was treating her.when he had accepted her with his own wish that why this rude behaviour...n slowly the anger overtook whatever little praise i had for him...what was their future ?? where were they heading ?? how long wil he be able to sustain her ?? was such a relation spoiling two lives or it has given a new life to atleast one of them ?? was it a act done out of bravery,love,pressure,greed or it was anything else !! with all these questions in my mind i closed my eyes waiting for the journey ahead the next morning...

The sudden brakes n the followed rush put me out f my current state... I was surprised the night had passed so fast..n i was at my desired destination... i gathered all my senses together ,checked all my baggage n moved to move out of the train.. i had hardly taken 3-4 steps when somebody interrupted me from behind. " Excuse me, i think you have left your magazine on the seat" , this was what i heard ... as i turned back to find the source of such valuable information , i was stunned more than the last time.. Girl whom i had labelled as mentally retarded ,hardly 12 hours back, was speaking english with a better fluency n flair than mine.."Excuse me,i think that's yours",she said again pointing towards a magazine that i had left on my berth.. i had no words,just nodded in reply n with this she moved out of the compartment. i was left stunned,all alone in the compartment ,not knowing the reasons behind the yesterday night incidents,the actions n emotions that had followed,the conclusions that i had drwan were all proved wrong withen space of my two heartbeats..i had no reasons to explain to myself,as if my brain had refused to answer all together..

I picked my luggage n moved out still in a state of confusion.. I scanned the crowd to look for my friend who was supposed to come to pick me up.. i repeated the process twice only to find no results..suddenly my eyes stopped at a point,it was not my friend,but it was the couple and their family.they were hardly two meters away from me exchanging greetings..girl was standing wit all smiles,boy was standing near his mother and boy's mother had all the love in the world for him...scene was a usual indian family scene n i had no objections to it.But boy's mother was not treating him as a married young guy deserved to be treated..that extra care,extra love n extra bit of questions were now an issue to me.. something was wrong with this family and i was not able to make out what it was ? i hadnt faced such a difficult,complex or difficult(or what ever u may love to call it) case stdy all through out my MBA..now i needed an answer,answer to silent all my inner queries.." Kya hua beta ?? the mother repeatedly asked in a tone which was so soothing to ears but cant be related to a married person.. "Maa .... maa ... isne na mujhe raste bhar khoob tang kia...isne na meri aapse baat bhi nahi karai... ye na bilkul acchi nahi hai.. ye meri koi baat nahi manti...mujhe dantti bhi hai...mujhe iske saath kahin na bheja karo..mujhe aap hi ke saath rehna hai..maa plz mujhe chod k naa jaya karo..mujhe bahut dar lagta hai" was what the boy replied n tightly hugged his mother... The boy spoked so much for the first time in front of me and this conversation made the scenario crystal clear to me,my inner queries were solved at a faster rate than at which they were created..

The girl whom i had labelled as mentally retarded was an intelligent,educated n caring wife of a man whose mind had not grown with the same pace as of his body.... n the girl's action were drawn out of the attemt to make his hubby feel normal,relaxed n most importantly at peace...

I had no words to describe my inner feelings,what i could say...at that time i was so amazed ,so stunned,girl had suddednly became an angel in my eyes...she atleast deserved a nobel for what she was doing...i had just witnessed a case which was titled 'realistic personal feelings without any expectations' and the only conclusion which i could draw was " What love !!! " .....

Of Hopes And Ashes !!

Seriously..i hav never stopped loving u.. or hav i ?? i dont know !! This controversial question dont seem to leave me for ages now......And i don't seem to find an answer to this !! tried hard ,, but.. all in vain ...Explored all my mind..blanked it ..but the answer was nowhere to be found.. everyday ..u knw..everyday.. i go under the traumatic sessions of your memories... From a bubble in the air to my hairstyle to my clothings to my bike to my exams...my results..my friends..my success..my failures..my happiness..my disappointments..songs..movies...my sleep..my dreams...my wishes... Why ?? why everything seems to be always keep reminding me of the fact that u r still very much part of my life,my soul... and i continuously keep trying to decline this fact !! Yaar dis is my life.. dont u understand such a simple thing..plzz let me liv my life.. u r in some corner of the world pushing me out of this world !! i want 2 liv a life completely deprived of u !! n in the current scenerio u seem to end all my efforts for the desired result !! is there any way out for me .. its just because of you i have never been able to move on in my life !! i hav tried to find alternative sources of happiness...but nothing seemed to hav worked !! in the midst of my lovely friends i somehow manage to escape from your shadow.. but everynow n then ur memories seem to run faster than me n catch up wit me in every possible corner that i have tried to hide in !! i dnt knw why ?? but i find it a bit difficult and wrong at the same time to move on !! i just can't... yaar i want 2 liv..liv a life that is not full of these melodramatic sessions... but rather its should be u..making my life a rhythmic endless poem .. U r happy or not ,, i don't know that.. but like the sun is to earth..u r to me..sole source of the ultimate light !! and right now u r present in me in only two forms ... FORM... OF HOPES AND ASHES !!!

Ladki Jo Aenak Laga k Khadi Thi..

Sooraj ki maddham chamak ko dhundhla karke

,usko halke se jaise chipa k khadi thi,

Aankho k darpan mei,khwabon k sawan mei,

yaadon ko jaise duba k khadi thi,,

LADKI JO AENAK LAGA K KHADI THI...

Julfen hawa sang jo jhumti thi,

kabhi surkh gaalon ko bhi chumti thi,

Kabhi lab se yun hi lipat si jaati,

kabhi door jaati-kabhi paas aati,,

Ki un uljhi uljhi laton mei

wo jaise saara jaha uljha k khadi thi,,,

LADKI JO AENAK LAGA K KHADI THI...

Nighahon k saagar bade hi the gehre,

unhi mei uthti thi wo masoom lehre,

Kabhi jhoomte the,kabhi dolte the,

wo chup the magar bahut kuch bolte the,,

Wo sab se nighahen mila to rahi thi,

magar,khud se najren bacha k khadi thi,,,

LADKI JO AENAK LAGA K KHADI THI...

Wo lab surkh the kuch gulabon k jaise,

wo bheege hue the shrabon k jaise,

Unhi mei thi bikhri hui muskurahat,

magar choti si bhi nahi koi aahat,,

Wo kuch bolna chahti thi bhi ya nahi, ya ,

hawaon ko sab kuch bata k khadi thi,,,

LADKI JO AENAK LAGA K KHADI THI...

Hawa ki wajah se ud raha tha wo aanchal,

ya aanchal hila to hui thi wo halchal,

Wo gul the tassuvur ko uske hi pyaase,

ya lai unhe-wo aai thi jahan se,,

Wo khushbu karib uske aai thi udke,

ya khud hi wo khushbu uda k khadi thi,,,

LADKI JO AENAK LAGA K KHADI THI...

Wo do kaanch k tukdo se jhankti thi,

magar kaanch the ki tootte nahi the,

Wo aankho se bhar bhar pila to rahi thi,

magar jaam the ki chotte nahi the,,

Wo khud hi pagal si hone lagi thi ,

ya, zamane ko pagal bana k khadi thi,,,

LADKI JO AENAK LAGA K KHADI THI...

An Ocean Of Love,

With effection and care,

can never be found,

In Words So Bare.

All That i Say and i Wish To Do,

I Do , I Do and I Will Always Do.

To the end of this World,

I WILL LOVE YOU !!!

Rose and a Thorn..

A Rose and A Thorn,

Bloomed on a Morn,

Hilarity said Garden,

The Sky asked for Pardon..

And soon by their Side,

A Drone passed with pride,

He looked upon with Jerk,

And moved down with perk..

The Rose again Smiled,

a sweet Smell compiled,

With a Friendship never gone,

And On , And On , And On.................

The rose understood...that drone will b with him only till he is fresh,...but thorn wil always b there for ever... SO if u r a rose.... u will be lured my many drones in ur life who will only use u till u look good.... but ur best friend will b thorn around u..who will b with u no matter what,in every condition.... so Always value the thorn around u..he may pinch u at times ..but the show must go on.. the friendship must go on..

Kyu ????

Kyu mera dil usko bhula nahi paata ,

Kyu mai dil se uski yaad mita nahi paata,

Kyu mujhe uski har baat yaad hai,

Kyu usse judi har taarikh yaad hai,

Kyu bheed mei har soorat uski hoti hai,

Kyu har soorat mei uski moorat hoti hai,

Kyu aaj bhi usse kuch bhi kehne mei dar lagta hai,

Kyu aaj bhi uske liy mar jaane ko dil karta hai,

Chahe dekh lo jitna usko fir bhil nahi bharta,

Kyu mera ab aur kuch karne ko dil nahi karta,

Kyu uski yaad se mere chehre pe muskaan aati hai,

Kyu usko dekh k meri jaan mei jaan ati hai,

kyu maine use maaf kar dia ,

kyu dil se sab kuch saaf kar dia,

kyu aaj bhi mujhe uska intjaar hai,

kyu uski ek jhalak ko aaj bhi dil bekrar hai,

Kyu mere dil mei ab bhi ek aas hai,

kyu door hokar bhi wo mere paas hai,

Kyu mujhe lagta hai ki wo mujhko bulati hai,

sapno mei mere to wo roj chal k aati hai,

Kyu mujhe lagta hai ki wo galat nahi hai

jab ki mai jaanta hun wo sahi nahi hai,

Kyu mai uske liy saari hadein tod sakta hun,

wo keh ke to dekhe,uske liy mai zindgi chodh sakta hun.

Kyu mai manne ko taiyar nahi ki wo jaa chuki hai,

ab to wo mere dil se meri dhadkano mei aa chuki hai.

Kyu bhagwan ne hamara ye rishta banaya,

agar bichadna hi tha,to usne humko kyu milaya ?

Kyu mujhe lagta hai kiwo mujhko yaad karti hogi,

meri khushi k liy wo fariyad to karti hogi.

Kyu jud jaati hai jaake har cheej usse,

Mai usse kitna pyaar karta hun,ek baar to aake puche mujhse.

Kyu uska pyaar ban gai meri manzil,

Kya mai kabhi ban paunga uske pyaar k kabil ?

Kyu wo mujhse keh na pai apne dil ki baat,

pata nahi kaise kategi meri har raat ?

" KYU wo samjhi nahi ki diwana hun mai uska ZAMANE Se,

Ya fir samajh k nasamjh kar dia usne,Dar k ZAMANE Se"

Kyu wo samajh nahi pai mere jajbaaton ko,

Samajh nahi aata dosh kise dun,use yaa haalaton ko.

Kyu usne bada li mujhse dooriyan,

Jarur rahi hongi uski apni majbooriyan.

Kyu mujhe lagta hai ki wo wapas aaegi,

Aur is baar aake fir kabhi na jaegi.

Kyu usko mere dard ki khabhar nahi hui,

hoti bhi kaise,merA dil tootne ki to aawaj bhi nahi hui.

Kyu chaa gai wo mere har khyaal mei,

Meri har baat mei,mere har sawaal mei.

Kyu nahi hai koi aur rishta uske jaisa,

wo na sahi mil jae shaks uske jaisa.

Kyu wo de gai mujhe itni saari saugaten,

Kyu aaj bhi yaad aati hai uski saari baatein.

Kyu nahi dikhti kisi aur mei wo ada,

Bach k rahiega,kahin aap bhi na ho jaen us par fida.

Kyu chali gai wo meri zindgi chod kar,

Apne saare rishte,apne saare waade todkar.

Kyu bikhar jaata hun mai uske ek hi khyaal se,

Ab to dar lagta hai usse jude har ek sawaal se.

Kyu nahi le paaya koi aur uski jagah,

Na jaane iske peeche kya hai wajah ??

IS Kyu Ka Jawab Mujhko Mil Hi Gaya !

IS Kyu Ka Jawab Mujhko Mil Hi Gaya !

SHAYAD ISI KO PYAAR KEHTE HAI !!!

" A WALK TO REMEMBER...FOREVER"

If not once in a blue moon the day was certainly supposed to b once in a year !! I had decided, to make it big, no more beating around the bush , i had to gather courage - dont know from where, had 2 let my feelings flow,... The time was perfect as it could get.It was the V-day, 14th feb ,the day of love.... I couldn let it go just like that.. had 2 perform dance on chance.. had to tell her that if ever i had gone mad for any1 then that person has to be her.. if ever i had dressed up for anyone then she was the 1.. if ever i waited for hours to just have a 5 second glimpse of anyone then she was the sole one.. and yes,if ever i cried after a fight ,then that fight was with her !! almost one and a half year had gone past of our friendship and i was still like" Wow ,from where this angel came ? " From her long hair,deep eyes,innocent looks,dimpled cheeks,kiddish behaviour,stupid questions,making silly faces- I just loved everything...every molecule of her was so special to me !!

I knew in front of her i was not daring enough to say all this,nor my actions were loud enough.. so i thought to pen down all my thoughts !! as i wanted to give it The best shot , i gathered the best f writers among my friends,explained them the whole situation n demanded for the best possible result.. and with their contribution mixed with my emotions an almost perfect love letter was prepared which had all the feelings n emotions which i always wished to tell her..

But just a letter was not enough for me... had to compliment it with a perfect gift..and gift had to be special,had to be unique... 4 search parties were made in order to find one.. after my rejection lost counts , a momento let a impression on my heart at once..i knew this was it.. A Boy and a Girl holding hands with the caption - " If the world starts all over again, and i m born as Adam, promise me , you will be the Eve ".. finally the preparation was all done well on time.. But the main question was still unanswered .. Who will act as postman ?? who will deliver her my feelings ?? i knew i couldn do it !! the more i thought , more i was assured that there are no other option except one, her best friend... who had helped me always...her best friend had even helped me during the time when she had refused my 1st frienship offer .. this time also she had to help me !! with no mobile n phone communication at that time ( as I was in ,,guess what,,class 10th) i had to take a chance in the morning .. had to catch her on her way to school at any cost.. with all these plans,thoughts,excitement all around,every thought giving me goose bumps ,,sleep was no where to be found on the previous night.. when i got completly lost in all this and went in my dreams i dont remember...But as a result..the next morning......

I got up late compared to my planned time..and then had to rush with all the things..time appeared to pass by so fast as never by.. minutes were tickling by and my heartbeat were raising with the fear that what if i am not able to catch her.. the ultimate frustration came when i was not able to find my purse which had all my savings of previous month and were a vital part of my plans( i had planned to take her to baskin robbins.which till then v had only seen from outside,and as she loved ice cream this act was special for her).. So i asked my mother to find it..while she was looking around for it she came to get a hand on my science answersheet of my exams.. and as obvious i had not got the passing marks and this was the reason for hiding it.. that was the 1st n last time in my life i came across such serious humour.. i smiled at my mom and said please mom we will discuss this afterwards,plz sign the answer sheet and look for purse..she accepted the request, but purse was no where to be found... certainly a Bad beginning to the day!! It was getting late with every minute.. Mom gave me 50rs and i started the run towards the most exciting n memorable moments of my life..

I couldn afford to barely walk towards my destination.. so i guess the spirit of michael johnson came 2 help me and i started running as fast as i could...probability of catching her up was very less...with all those fears n anxiety i was just running...Things were not to be as planned.. On my way i got the biggest surprise of my life.. her best friend was waiting for me on the way..and a thousand WHY's struck my mind in blink of an eye..with a huge sigh of relief on seeing her i approached her and asked her"How come here,at this time ? " she smiled, opened her bag , took out a packet and said she has given this..its for u.. i decided to hold back my packet with a little fear in the corner that what the packet may turn out to be...

As suddenly,something out of the context had happened i didn knew how to react... i just said a simple thank u with blank eyes.. i was already late,so the next run was towards my school.. even the spirit coudn save me from getting late and had 2 b in the que of late commers... i was dying to open the packet,was thrilled to the core but before that had to face punishment for coming late..full 4 rounds of the ground which i always felt so proud of.. for the first time in years i was questioning the size of the ground...these physical training instructor never understand feelings !! but spirit was there to help me.. and then without any energy break downs i completed all the rounds and rushed towards the class..it was the perfect place as it could get to see what the parcel contained..as i entered the class ,, what bloody hell ,, teacher was already in..n to add to it back rows were already full..no chance sitting in the front row and even having a glimpse at the packet !! for the first time in my life i found mathematics boring n disinteresting ..and as i was dying out of excitement i told my partner about it and the chain began.. it seemed to be a very big news for anyone to digest..but to add to the suspense free time was hard to come by...teachers were all on time until it was Lunch time..till then the news had spread like fire in the jungle n i had wished a zillion times for a good outcome.. the packet was taken from me against my wish and i was made to sit like a king and my workers doing all the work..packet was opened as carefully as it could get and out came two things- a letter and a small box..my wished was asked for,what i wanted to see first..i said the letter..as one of them started reading it ,as a leaders address to the nation, started the most beautiful description of feelings i ever came accross..With every line i was becoming happy as never before. . it was a love letter,she had written it for me..and the lines that struck me the most were " My biggest reality is you , , will you be my reality forever ?? " ... then the gift was opened and it was a momento which read "my my love has got a name and it's you "....i just couldn stop smiling,whole class had got lost in the celebration,everyone was coming n congratulating me,demands for a party had already begun and there was a question on everyone's mind including me- what will i do now ? the planned script had turned upside down..what next i was supposed to do,how i was supposed to act..i just had no clues,no answers !! she had asked me to meet her as the school got over.. every minute got so hard to pass by..class seemed like a jail..but reason to smile was so big that i beared all this with utmost ease..and as the final bell rang i was on my toes again... i started the run towards her without any idea as to what i wil say,how will i face her n what if she has questions ??

As i was getting close to her,my heart beats were getting faster and loud as never before...The moment we saw each other our smiles turned into blushes,love in her eyes was as never before and she could hardly manage to look into my eyes.. i had also almost no idea as to what should i say , what should i ask ?? i was just looking at her just blushing,smiling and shying away from me.. the first question i asked her was " since when ??" to which she fired her's " what's ur reply".. i said " what do you think ??".. she said " if i would have known the answer i never would have asked ?? "... then came the most courageous moment of my life..I said " Yes i do.. i love u since i have known u..i love u for what i'm when i m with you and most importantly i love you for what you have been to me ".. then her eyes spoke it all.. she said "thanks for being with me in hardest of times,thanks for bearing all the pains for me,thanks just for being there always " i felt like the most lucky man in the whole galaxy...

But the dream of taking her to Baskin Robbins was not 2 b completed that day..as had only 50rs in the wallet.. but still i asked -ice cream..to which she highly obliged..and then became a journey that became " A WALK TO REMEMBER...FOREVER"

BE THE CHANGE

Everytime i look at these pics i wonder what's there mistake... God can't b so harsh !! Luck can't be so bad !! just because their stars were not so favourable as our's, just because they didn't had a solid base to lay their foundation...doesnt stop them from having same rights as ours.. as one f my friends commented on this saying "CHILDHOOD SELLING INNOCENCE " n "ILLITERACY SELLING WORDS " , i wish they get their share of life..their life is not meant to be spent just like that.. when everyone is amazed on continuous growth of our economy even in times of recession,i question what's the development all about ?? ..the rich getting richer and poor remaining the same ??..is Growth a term applied only to the lucky lot f population ??.. Huge MNC's offices, mall culture , amusement parks , increased number f 4-wheelers on roadtc etc etc..is what we call development ??In this era,when per capita income seem to increase every year,new millionaires r made everyday, every seem to enjoy the development... EXCEPT this lot.. but why ?? will they b ever like this ?? wil this be a ongoing show ever ?? will they always live on courtsey of others ?? will their gloomy days never end ?? will they never say see the light side of life , the cool side of life , the fun side of life ?? salary packages have risen to new heights in recent times, but wil they always earn this little ?? will they always struggle to make their ends meet ?? be it the scorching heat or the icy cold they have no leaves.they r always their , bare feeted,with the little f the clothes they get carrying the heavy weight of expectation ...they are working day and night out,in different shifts,in different roles just for the sake that no member of their family sleeps hungary.. and even after so much hard work in the worst possible condition they have 2 bear with people's strange behaviour,their anger,being a reason f their amusement or for that matter their time pass...so next time when u stop on a red light in your chauffeur driven vehicle or your bike dont look at them strangely...they are just one of us...remember you could have also been their,in their place,in their lives ...just because u landed with better stars doesnt make them any inferior by any sorts.. what they are doing is just what u do in your office,working n earning for the family !! before being a good manager , good businessman ....just be a good soul !! a little help of yours is worth weight in gold for them ..Dont think " why just i ?? "....u cant change others so start with yourself..if u want to see the real development ,,,,lead by example , just " BE THE CHANGE ".. JAI HO !!

IT STILL HURTS

As my evening came to an end my mind had another set of questions that were required to be answered as soon as possible..these questions were not new to me but today when i heard them from someone else ,i thought there have to be some answers for these questions ,some logic behind those answers.."WHY PEOPLE CHANGE"..and most importantly "HOW PEOPLE CHANGE" ??good times r forgotten so easily,memories r erased in blink of an eye,replacements r made in seconds..I STILL DONT KNOW HOW PEOPLE DO THIS ?? when it happened to me i thought may b it was just my bad luck,but now when i c it happening continuosly in my life or for that matter in lives of people all around me i wonder what causes these changes..dont people think before acting like this ??..dont they know how much it hurts ?? why suddenly they stop caring for other's feelings.. ?? or is it ,that, all this builds over a certain period of time and for all this time they move faking around..?? how they suddenly start labelling LOVE as just mere attraction ??why they suddenly start thinking that concern has taken form of over possesiveness?? how calls change to messages to miss calls and then to simply ignorance?? why own priorities suddenly become more important.. ?? why they suddenly start running away from us ?? why they suddenly start mentioning all the weak links in the relation ??all these questions just simply give my mind,my soul an unressistable shock !! its not that I didn’t tried before to find the answers but what i got in return was a simple excuse - "TIME"..everyone seemed to fit their reasons in the so called time frame..facts after facts were put forward to me to prove that time changes it all..but i never accepted it..i knew its not the lack of time that puts the relationship in a bad state,its the lack of consistency in dedication to the relationship..but even after i landed on this little conclusion i found those behaviour very much alien to my nature..because i know one thing no one becomes a bad soul ,in eyes of the other person,with his own happiness..but are the distances created by time so impossible to handle ?? some people admit that they know they are doing wrong but they cant stop themselves from doing it ..but this is no excuse.. even if u cant love someone in return , do respect their love.. but where does that respect goes in adverse situations ??when u r on the edge and the relation is just being dragged on ,trust me its very tough !! its painful !! and it hurts !! and believe me.. " IT STILL HURTS "

Man in a Women's World

For all these years i have wondered who am i ?? A son or a friend or a boyfriend or 2 b a future husband and future father ?? What's my role In this so called "man's world" ?? Does being a man itself gurantee my existence in this man's world ?? Filled with all those questions my mind ponder over the fact that who labelled this world as a man'a world ?? Was it because initially he used to cut the trees whole day and women sat home waiting for him or because a little later he learned farming and was sole earner of his family or because he faught battles and protected his family from being ruined or may be it's because of the modern era where man is considered to be more intelligent and smart of the two species and being labelled as the HEAD of the family !! All these facts may have encouraged people to lable this world as a "Man's world" , , but why nobody thought what was woming doing all this time periods ?? she was not absolutely idle for sure !!when man was busy cutting trees she was busy taking care of her child,making his child believe that his father wil return in the evening and then they all will have food,she used to tell his child- my son u need not beg,borrow or steal for food.your father is on the way.. when man was busy doing farming she was all along with him taking care of their field,providing him meals at the right time and along with that taking care of their child... when battles were fought and all men of the family were out there putting their life at stake she was their at the home looking after the children and teling them their is nothing to fear and your father will be returning soon unaffected by her own fear of getting widow.....And if u talk about this modern era she is to be found everywhere... from morning breakfast,preparing lunch,going to office n back,washing clothes and then preparing dinner... from morning to until she sleeps she is a work machine... fulfilling expectation as a mother,wife,daughter in law,office clerk etc together is something only she knows how to do ?? When a new life can't b started from one species alone then why this world is being labelled as such !! This species certainly needs a recognition of its own...v all should give them their due respect.. how strong v may b in our hands,, woman's go far ahead in terms of heart.. they have a much more stronger position in matter of heart..v need them much more in every aspect of life in every moment of life.. to understand us , to support us or for that matter to be just with us... i have realised who am i " I M JUST A STUPID COMMON MAN IN THIS WOMEN'S WORLD "

EveRY TiMe.....I Wish..

Everytime i see you....

I Wish To See You More...

Everytime i see you more...

I Wish You Smile...

Everytime you smile....

I Wish The Time Stops....

And Everytime the time stops...

I WISH THE NEW WORLD STARTS WITH ONLY BOTH OF US....