I don’t know what the connection between these train journeys and my thoughts is? They both seem to come along together as if were waiting for each other. As the train passes through these lovely green fields I become a bit nostalgic. It’s been almost 10 months now since I finished my last academic venture but the conscious of my sub conscious mind keep collecting the things back which I may be wanted to happen in a different manner than they actually did.
For the past few years I have analyzed that as you grow in age your mind seems to be adopting a more practical stance. The head starts ruling over the heart. Significance of a human relationship tends to loose its value. You tend to become more self-prioritized. Go back 15-20 years when you had just stepped into the education platform, It was a wonderful world altogether. The purity of your mind didn’t allowed you to be so self-centered. Friends were never good or bad, they were simply friends. Fights never lasted for more than a couple of hours, and ego was no where to be found. Even the thought of why should I apologize never took birth. You actually took care of every relation possible without even knowing you were doing so. But the nature doesn’t allow you to be in that state forever. As our body and mind grow in stature complexities come along. Different categories of people especially friends start turning up. They start becoming good or bad. You tend to assign different values to relationships. Bonds are divided into High priority, Low priority and no priority. You tend to invest in a relation only after you have calculated its future returns. May be the back up of friends we already have sends us into a more laid-back juncture. You tend to get upset over things which you would have hardly ever noticed some years back. “Why should I apologize theory” takes over “Should I apologize theory”. Think of the time when your best friend left the school and there was not a bigger twinge than that. Why do the bonds formed in more mature part of your life seems to lack this value? I don’t know how to define this character of human mind but regarding relationships you seem to more correct in your adolescent stage than in the later stages of your life. I have always believed that practicality kills a relationship but still at the same time can’t help falling in the trap. There was a time when I tried my heart out not to loose out on even a single relation in my life but as different values were assigned to different relations, the low ranked one were the one to loose out arising out of situations that were no more than just a ego issue.
As my train is about to reach the destination, the nostalgic stage of my mind is compelling me to ponder over the lost relations in previous few years. May be just a single sorry or even a Hi or even a missed call from either side would have done the trick. The slideshow of people who were once a part of my happy memories continues to roll over. Obviously the best of mates are still there with me but people whom I lost on also hold a certain importance in my life. They were responsible for making some part of my life beautiful even if they did it just for few moments. May b I was wrong at some point and may be it was their fault that we didn’t bother to be in touch. But then who doesn’t make mistakes. And even its not necessary that something went wrong, may be you got too involved with your life that you missed out on some.Today I take this moment to confess to all those people who were at some point a part of my life that whosoever fault it was let’s bury the hatchet, start afresh, make new journeys ahead. We shared a common part in our lives which shows we are connected in some or the other way. Let’s take this connection forward towards greater heights. We may not be the best mates possible but we can at least do better than acting like strangers. As I always say Life’s too short to hold grudges, so hold your nerves, have the courage, pick up the phone, write a letter, I don’t care how, say sorry, clarify things, make a new journey ahead. Believe me I have tried this once or twice and I didn’t even had to say sorry, because people who understand you will also feel the need to be together again. They are not desperate to feel superior or listen to your sorry or make you feel low. It’s just that none of you took the initiative to break the silence. Shatter that wall of ego, help love score over egoism. One of my favorite quotes on friendship is that – “Friends are like stars, you may not see them but they are always there”. So don’t loose out on your stars, they only make your life glow more. Add as many stars as possible because you never know how much light you may need at some point of time. Every time I think of a lost friend these lines come to my mind –
“Our friendship seems so broken
And these words are like a token
Of the time that we were close
When we esteemed each other most.
It's like a door slammed shut
Or like our friendly bonds were cut
When we stopped talking and sharing
But I never did stop caring.
I hope that we can mend things
Just the thought, it makes my heart sing
For you are a special friend
And our friendship we must tend”
